Babe we’ve been through a hell of a lot together. We’ve had our ups and our downs. We had our smiles and our frowns, we yell and scream at each other. We also say mean things that we don’t mean. We argue and get frustrated with each other, but that’s normal. Everyone has those moments, it’s a human thing to do. Through all the rough times we had together brought joy and happiness in the end. We learned a lot from the start. We both learned how to control our anger and our temper and talked things out in a civil manner. We learned from each others mistakes and commented on each others accomplishments and progress. I know other days are tough and they seem like no change has happened, But a lot has changed and a lot of progress has been made. there are still things that we both need to change but that takes time, it takes each others help and support to make that change. I’ve said things that I regret saying, wishing I can take it all back. Things happen for a reason. Things happen so that you can learn from them, learn to not make the same mistake, learn to be a better person not just for yourself but for the ones that you love. The things I said to you not only hurt you but it hurt me as well, seeing you leave was definitely the hardest thing for me to go through, watching you walk out that door killed me inside, knowing I wouldn’t see you ever again, knowing that I made a mistake. Watching you leave as you cry with your head down killed a part of me, not just a part of me but every bit of me. You’re my world, my life, my love of my life and my other half, my soul mate and my angel. I don’t know how I could let you go that easily, I don’t know how I could say those things. I feel lost, upset, heartbroken, angry, and also betrayed. I’m lost because you’re not here with me, you’re not in my arms, not looking into my eyes, lost because you’re love isn’t here anymore. I’ve betrayed not only you but I’ve betrayed myself. All I wanted to do was love you, be there for you and always make you smile. I did the opposite, I hurt you instead of love you, I wasn’t there when you needed me the most, I made you cry instead of making you smile. I wish I could turn back time and change everything, change the way I treated you because I know you could have been treated a lot better. Lisa, you don’t have to take my apology, you don’t even have to speak to me. I just want to say I am very sorry for hurting you, and saying the things I said. I never wanted you to leave, I never wanted you to hurt so much. I love you with all my heart, and wish you were still here with me. I wouldn’t know what to do without you. I hope you are doing okay. I love you babe.
-Love Boo Bear <3